I raise a Hallelujah!!!

I had begun digging into my Bible more regularly in September, even writing down my prayers. And then I stopped in December. What happened? I would wake up knowing that I needed to read, knowing that I needed to dig deep but it was superficial. I started slowly to begin again but it wasn't like it was. I was letting satan's lies once again take hold. The busyness of Christmas came and went.... 

A few days after Christmas I started several devotions in my Bible app. That's where I found a devotion where it said we needed to dig deep and plant our feet on solid ground, Jesus Christ. His mercies are new every morning, through the things that life throws at us we aren't supposed to allow them to consume us. I never wanted my suffering to become my unbelief. Something clicked, there lay my answer!! I knew this, I've known this but why had I forgotten!!! That's why God tells us every moment of every day be in constant prayer, constant communication with Him! It is all to easy for us to become lost again, filled with satan's lies but every time God will be there waiting. LEAN ON HIM!!!! CRY OUT TO HIM!!!!

Yesterday morning I had asked God to show me if I was on the right track.... Later in the morning I received an encouraging message on Instagram from a stranger encouraging me to push on even when it gets hard, knowing that what lies ahead will be worth the suffering now. 

This morning my eyes went to this verse (mind you it wasn't even in the devotion), "God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns." Psalms 46:5. Right there, His promise spoke volumes to me!! God was showing me that He is holding me, helping me. I only need to cry out, to dig deep into His words. 

And then YouTube pops up on my phone (I hardly ever get notifications from it so this was very odd), it was notifying me of a song from Bethel called "I raise a Hallelujah". What perfect timing does our Lord have!!!

So friends, in the midst of satan's lies, what the world expects of us and life demands of us, cry out to Jesus!! With every moment we can be tossed about or we can be sure in Christ our Solid Rock. The doubts that come are not meant to stay but we allow them to take refuge in our soul. These doubts eat at our confidence making us question what God has promised us. He hasn't called us to live in the darkness, wandering around aimlessly. Ask Him to show you today, listen for His voice, dig deep into the Bible. Don't over complicate it by trying to find the perfect thing, just dig!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awkO61T6i0k

Digging Deeper

Digging Deeper.... those are my words for 2019. I was excited with the first days of this year, it even begun days before. Slowly the doubt and insecurities started to creep back in. Life got busy. I also wanted to start this sooner but didn't... I was lost at what it meant to dig deep. I was already reading the Bible, what was I missing, was there something more that I should be doing?????

In Sunday school our pastor mentioned, "Jacob should have known who he was talking to. We should also know God, but more importantly we should be using what He has taught us!!" THIS!!!! This was God speaking to me!! Am I using what God has taught me or am I listening to satan's voice more than HIS?????

Yesterday in a training for my business this trainer said we can learn, and learn, and learn but if we are not using it, doing the things, utilizes what we have learned it is all useless!!! If we want the results we have to do the actions!!

Then comes this morning, the feeling of being unsure was overwhelming. So in my prayer I asked God to show me what he wanted me to do, what I needed to do. I open my devotion and there it said, "Heaviness is not of my kingdom!" Can you say wow!!!! When am I going to open my eyes and see that the heaviness I have been feeling is not what GOD wants for me!!! The answers are right there in front of me!! BUT the biggest key is am I taking action with what He has given me?! Am I sitting here wallowing in the lies satan has placed in my thoughts and on my heart or am I going to take captive of what is God's and make HIM proud?!?! It all begins with me and what I choose to listen to. Are my thoughts filled with His word, His promises, rooted in His love or am I listening to the deceiver, filling my thoughts with negativity, doubt and hopelessness? Every day I am going to be more purposeful, especially on the weekends, to fill my thoughts with His word and pray constantly. Writing down His promises, my goals, etc... will also be part of this.

I am making goals, I am going to write them down and be more intentional with what I do with my time. First are my long-term goals, how am I going to get there, what kind of steps do I need to take to make them happen and how am I going to implement them. Second are my short-term daily goals, these need to coincide with my long-term goals and how I am going to accomplish them. Below is an example.

I am tired of letting satan lead my life, my thoughts and my actions. Not only am I going to be digging deeper in scripture but I will also be digging deeper into my actions and how I am implementing what I am learning. I pray this will spark hope and inspiration but more importantly lead others to more of a rich life, a life that God wants for you!! Don't let fear stop you!!

Busy

It has been busy around here. Trying to get ready to go. I hate that feeling like I am going to forget something so I have written a list and I will check it twice :) I'll post pictures when we get back.

Stuff

It is still rainy!! I can't believe this weather and you can already feel that fall has arrived.

I picked more vegetables from the garden today. We have one little watermelon. The plants are growing very slowly but we will see if it turns into anything before it freezes.

William was trying to get the yellow container on the shelves and couldn't reach it. He was whinning for it, comes over to me and pats me to let me know he needed help. This is his way of telling me he needs something, I love it :)

This is what we had for dinner: pinto beans soaked and then cooked for eight hours, add potatoes, green beans, carrots and celery. It's alright but I need to find something that adds pozaz to it, some kind of seasoning or maybe I just need to add more of what I do now?!

James, as usual, was whinning about not wanting to eat. And then all of a sudden he told me that I should take a picture of him crying. But it turned into a silly smile instead :)

It has been a good day but James for some reason pooped in his pants. He was outside so I think he just didn't make it. Other than that it was a very productive day, thank goodness!

This is how it looks towards Mt. Taylor and then you look to

Grants and it looks like this:

It has been raining here sooooo much! I love it!!!!

This is the thing that I miss the most about living in the south.

It makes my day when it rains!

On the other hand James doesn't like it so much because it comes with

thunder and lightning. So we are stuck inside.

Usually the rain won't last long so he runs outside.

Cubby is the palmerianian, terrier and Ginger is the mix of Jack Russel, pikanese and terrier.

I know I didn't spell these right!!

This is my new bush that we added a month ago to the front yard.

It is a russian sage and I love the blooms. I would've shown a picture

of my other bush that attracts hummingbirds but it has no blooms right now and looks

kind of sad :(

Can you tell he is whinning??

It has been a good day so far and I got my camera to start working yesterday and got all of our pictures onto CDs!! Yeah!!! And I have listed a few things on ebay to help pay off our cc's. I hate debt! Jim is off for four days and I love it when he is off. It is surprising how much I don't dread him going to work these last few months. I used to hate him not being home but now I actually enjoy the time. I think it is because I am doing more with James and I need to make more time with him. My getting away from striving to have a perfect house is getting better but it is still there. In church we talked about "Letting go and letting God". It is hard but when you do He does amazing things. Like I have been worrying about our cc's, about paying them off before we get pounded with interest. Well, today Jim sold our pellet stove to his cousin for 1200! This will really help and I know it is all in God's timing. He has gradually helped us and by gradually doing so I have learned more and more that I don't need so many things. I know it is hard for Jim too. It is hard not to want stuff and I know it is not bad but I am learning to step away a little more. We need to pay off some things. And then maybe I can focus on those things that I have been wanting to get the boys :) We are truly blessed and we have so much. My goal is to be content with what we have and not always want new things. I want to teach the boys that also. This is a load off of me, writing this down...

A Quiet House

Yesterday was good but very busy. I got 21 dictations done and cleaned up my moms house, and organized ours a little bit. I don't have any picts to post because there is something wrong with my camera. I took a bunch of picts and when I went to review them it said "unidentified image". So what I am going to try is to get all of the picts off of the card and onto a CD. So this will take a while to do today :( Another thing about yesterday is that Jim's mom came and got BOTH of the boys. First time for both of them to be away for the night. It was very quiet and still is very quiet. Kind of weird. Hopefully I can get a lot done before they come home, we shall see...

Start

This will be new for me. It is hard to know what to write. Guess that will take time and it will start flowing easier. I'll start with how today has been so far. I stayed up after Jim left for work and he switched again to days instead of graveyard. I went to the Dollar Store yesterday and got some stuff for James to play with.



He had a lot of fun. Playing with glue, cutting and putting the stickers on. I am going to have to do this more often for him. He really gets carried away with the glue!! And with William I gave him some cheerios and a shoe string, strung some on for him and of course he started eating :)




Jim finished (he still has to do the grout and stain it) the back splash behind where our wood stove goes. Next will be the floor...


All in all it has been a great week so far. James went to Awanas las night and had a blast! Jim, William and I went to Smiths and stocked up on groceries. Now I think I might try to take a quick nap. Never mind, I am too awake and James just woke up!! It will be an early night!